Just thinking about what I have gone through the past year I am a mess of emotions. I know that everything happens for a reason but why do I still have to go through this. With lacrosse starting up, I truly miss it. I miss the feeling of coming home from practice all sweaty and ready to fall over. It really makes me upset that I have to wait and wait to get back to playing. It does more to me emotionally than anyone really knows. I am so passionate about playing and about being the best at what I do and I have been thrown too many curve balls to count which have really put a halt on all of that . Of course I should be happy with all the progress I have made but just thinking about where I could be right now if none of this happened kills me. I left freshman year playing the best lacrosse I have ever played and I had all of these aspirations to reach goals and now I have to face the fact that I will never be able to get to them. That really sucks. I think it takes a certain type of person to go through what I have to go through and I am a much stronger person because of it.